2017 has been a year of ups and downs, endings and beginnings, and an avalanche of change. My year began with brown hair, a boyfriend, a waitressing job, a final semester of high school, and an uncle alive and well. My life felt much more obligation-driven, and I was much more singular, despite being coupled at the time. I kept to myself and would have easily classified myself as leaning towards the side of introvert. I was astonishingly good at limiting myself to the expectations of others.
As high school began winding down, I never felt any sadness or apprehension about what was to come. Committing to UGA and selecting my major had settled the dilemma of my immediate future. I did, however, feel a rattling anxiety blossoming in my chest as the impending change began to strain my relationship. In the back of my mind, I knew the relationship was not meant to last. We both felt it, and that contributed to the growing strain. We were trying to tape up a crack in the metaphorical dam of our relationship, but the flood came anyways. Looking back, I think we both felt a little relief that we could finally stop trying to hold it together.
I experienced the death of someone close to me for the first time in 2017. Death is confusing and frustrating and very sad. I wrote a whole post about it this summer, but in this post I will focus on the way it changed how I live. My uncle’s death was unexpected, and all too soon. He had so many more years ahead of him, and so many more things to accomplish and experience. Since his death, I try to live my life intentionally and experience as many things as I can because I know he wouldn’t want me to miss out on anything. Many people have a life they dream of having, but very few end up living that life. From this experience, I learned to never settle for less. Don’t put things off until a “more convenient” time, because it is never guaranteed that it will come. Actively pursue the things you want, right now. They can be as small as cutting your hair or losing that last five pounds, or as big as getting your dream job or moving to your dream country. Whatever it may be, pursue it with all your heart, every day.
Other Things I Learned in 2017:
- Being afraid of looking stupid is not worth missing out on things.
- If you want something, ask for it. The worst that can happen is that the answer is no.
- Consider yourself first when making decisions. This is not selfish. Its YOUR life.
- Sometimes it is better not to think about and talk through things. Just go with your gut.
- Most of the time, you already know what you want. Don’t waste time asking the opinions of others. Learn to figure it out for yourself.
- If someone in your life is not supporting your goals for their own personal reasons, let them go. There is only room for people who want you to succeed no matter what in your life.
- Don’t force things. There’s a difference between working on relationships and forcing them.
- You have the power to make yourself happy.
Although 2017 has been full of changes, and not all good ones, I still consider it one of the best years of my life. I feel as though I am becoming the person that I want to be, even though I still have a long way to go. I am incredibly excited for the things to come in 2018. These are just a few of the things that I want to achieve or work towards in the next year.
Intentions/Resolutions for 2018:
- Read 30 books (I made it through 20 in 2017!)
- Go to the gym at least 4 times a week.
- Journal at least once a week
- Create a blog plan at least 2 months ahead, and stick to it! (This has been a hard thing to do this past year with all of the changes in my life)
- Post consistently on the instagram for the blog.
- Finally stop picking at my skin! No more popped pimples and acne scars!
- Learn at least 3 new recipes.
- Start saving money.
These may seem like a lot, but I say go big or go home! I may not make the same amount of progress with all of these goals, but I hope to be consistently and actively working towards all of them. Here’s to great and new things in 2018! Cheers!